Back to the basics

I hear God saying He is going to take me back to the basics.

Life can become so clouded and crowded. God wants my heart back to the basics.

HIS WORD! His purpose and pull in my life.

As the world seems to spin more and more out of control, I find myself pulled in many directions particularly on social media. So many people, even ones I love and respected, now posting things I can hardly believe-leaving me so disheartened. Others, whom I love and respected also not posting anything in response to troubling times, leaving me also disheartened for their lack of involvement in a time when voices of love and wise truth are so desperately necessary. I find my heart aching in the absence of truth bringers, as well as in the absence of truth supporters. I find myself concerned by muddied messages littered with half truths or watered down convictions and guidance.

God, bring us into Your arms and REVIVE us! Let me, let us LIVE again! Take me back to the basics and keep my eyes upon You and keep my lips willing to speak your truth even when I am betrayed because I do/did so.  Keep my wandering heart upon Your path and keep my head bowed low in humble service of my King-my Savior-my Everything! Let me long for You, as the deer for the water.  Let me be strong enough to lead and humble enough to follow Your lead!

I don't want to be so distracted and side tracked anymore. So as I hear Him calling me back to the basics I want to listen. It may take me some time to figure out exactly what this looks like for me, but one thing I know it surely means is limiting social media and going back to just Facebook. Facebook is enough. And even on Facebook there are so many people, even people who claim to follow Christ, who then oppose His Word and Truth and demean and petition against their supposedly fellow Christ-followers. Calling them "evangels" or "evangelicals" all the while touting their own new gospel of self.

I have done a lot of soul searching recently. We took time as a church to study Proverbs and through April our family had gone through the Proverbs Ditties again too. I was reminded of the importance of sifting out those in my life who are bad influences, who seek to serve the god of  "self" and who are filled with anger, who remain in bitterness despite time and love and prayer. These influences do impact us. Not just in person, but on social media as well. And over time, I find my heart hurting more than helping these ones. God is reminding me it is His job to do the saving and my job to do the praying and using His wisdom in the times and ways I allow them into my life. When I do things His way I can do it to His glory and their good without having to sacrifice my own mental, emotional and spiritual well-being because of it. God wants us to be good stewards of the Love and Light He has given us! He wants us to be able to be free to live in the Light of eternity and to bring forth difficult truths to a dying world. We are called to be SALT! Salt is not just willing, but ready and able and wanting to be difference makers, to bring about CHANGE, to speak to a world that needs to hear the "offensive and intolerant" truths of our day. Truth like, without Christ we are dead in our sins and we face an eternity in hell. Truths like, killing an unborn child in the name of self is truly selfish and sinful, not loving to the mother who then faces emotional angst nor the child facing death.  Truths like, without accepting Jesus as our Lord and Savior we are lost. And the truth, that it is sinful and selfish to live for ourselves in sexual immorality, homosexuality, pornography, etc. rather than humbly work to God's glory to live holy and acceptable lives according to His law. This world needs to hear the truth that there is a better way! It is Gods way! It is not easy. We need each other! We need His laws, the easy ones and the hard ones to help guide our paths. We need those willing to surrender being "unliked" and unpopular in order to bring these difficult truths to a lost, hurting and dying world! People need to hear that they are missing out on something better when they give themselves over to their desires rather than giving themselves over to God and obeying His word! Jesus paid such a high price! He paid in His own BLOOD! A life fully surrendered and committed to honoring the call of God no matter the cost. This is our greatest example of LOVE! How can we allow our "Christian" brothers and sisters to go amiss and preach a gospel of self gratification and self indulgence and self love and self fulfillment and pride rather than the true gospel of an emptying of self and a self-refilled and refueled by the grace and truth of Jesus our good good Teacher! Jesus, Himself, knew it would require a cross. We are living amiss of the true gospel if we feel no weight of the gospel we bear... If we feel no pain from the truth that leads us to wear the scars of those who may mock, spit, abuse, and oppose us because of our service and speaking forth the good Laws of the God who gave it all for us to live! And if we bear no cross of our own, the laying down of our passions and desires that wage war against God's ways; as a Christ follower, there WILL be a weight to bear. So, I ask myself often and I wonder if you would ask yourself along with me, God, what cross am I bearing to follow YOU? Have I truly laid it all down to follow YOU? Or am I holding something back in my lips, in my hands, in my time, with my eyes, with my feet etc...

So, anyway, I find myself looking back to my original intent in entering social media. Originally I entered social media to actually keep up with my family when I moved away. When I began using social media I enjoyed using it to be open and share my life with others as well as to be supportive and lovingly walk alongside my family and friends in theirs. Social media became a very difficult place for me when I had difficult times. In so many ways I wanted to share more and speak freely exactly who I am and the triumphs and trials alike that I faced because I am a very open person...

But deep inside I still find myself longing for real face to face friendships and family relationships that truly breathe life into my spirit, accept me for who I am but spur me on toward love and good deeds and obedience to Christ no matter the cost! I don't find that on social media any longer. 

In times of weakness, social media can be more than a distraction, it can easily become a temptation as well as lead me into sadness in various ways and I want to honor God with what I put into my mind and who I choose to spend my time interacting with. If nothing else, it is a place for boundaries to be put in place if honoring God is on our hearts! Honoring Him with our time, with our eyes, with our hands (which become our lips so to speak when it is online "typing") and our heart--what we set our affections and devotion upon.

This back to the basics call is not going to be easy. But I do think it is what He is calling me to.

When I cleaned out our garage the other day I found all kinds of old pictures. I wondered if God had anything to speak to my heart in that find. At the time, He did not. But as I sat with Him on it, I felt Him whispering that this was a prompting and He was calling me to "go back" not to that time or to re do or undo anything... But rather, to simplify. To walk humbly with my God. To be the real me, honest and filled with His Word and Light!

This led me to delete my YouVersion Bible APP too. In so many areas I feel Him calling me BACK to the BASICS. I am devoting myself to reading the physical Bible again. Highlighting, marking, paging through and paging through, making notes, seeing the story come together again as a WHOLE picture!

To go back, also, to leading my kids in love toward Jesus and His Word (the physical Bible) before and above anything else. It is so easy to feel like a failure with raising the kids and teaching them too. But, God is reminding me that He is in the simple things... Like a silly song, a happy hug, a walk across the way, and time to stop and really SEE His creation! He reminded me of this especially last week when the kids and I spent some time in the PA Grand Canyon. I did not even purpose to not take a single photograph while we were away... But it happened that way anyway. I did not take my phone with me most places because we barely have any reception up there. So, it was amazing to me how I feel like I can really remember details more because I did not make the time to photograph every image that blessed my heart or spoke to my heart. I simply let it speak to me in that moment and I cherished my times more. I listened to the sound of the birds instead of trying to meticulously capture them on camera and then creatively post about what I experienced. And I spied the most unbelievably unique assortment of mushrooms during our long lovely hikes and I can vividly picture in my mind the details of each kind. But I have not a single picture to show for it! That actually feels so immensely good! In so many ways!

I long for God to take me back to the basics! In my ways of being a wife. In the way I mother. In the way I live as a daughter and sister and friend. And in the way I choose to serve Him and His body.

Whatever this may lead to, and however it may look over the long haul, I'm not exactly sure. But what I do know is that He has been leading me in this way for quite sometime now and I have just been unsure of exactly what He was trying to say until now.

So, with that in mind, I am deleting many off of my social media accounts who have been a negative influence, who I don't know well, and who speak against the Church and God's Word. I am also getting rid of my Instagram followers and who I follow so that I will not be on Instagram any longer. I love love love pictures so I don't want to delete my account and lose those, but I will no longer be using my account. I have already deleted my Twitter account as that was just a distraction and often brought disgusting follower requests which were just a source of frustration and added sadness to my heart. I wanted to let anyone interested in knowing my reasoning behind me ending many accounts and lessening my "friends" list, this is why. I want to honor God with my heart, with my mind, with my eyes, with my hands and my lips. I want to be back to the basics with Him and to be free to follow after Him with all my heart soul mind and strength without all the negativity, lies, anger and bitterness from those who are not on the same path. This has been so difficult for me because I am really an open and social person, but I do feel it is what He wants for me to really draw in to Him... Hopefully this will in turn leave me more filled with peace and His strength and truth, able to pour HIM out onto others when He brings me opportunities.

Back to the basics,
God keep showing me what this looks like to journey with YOU back to the basics. To spend more time with YOU and in Your Word of Truth than with any device or app or link. Lead me! I am longing for more and more and more of YOU! Nothing else satisfies me the way you and your Word do! I long for more depth in you! I long to find YOU in Your Word! I long to know you more! I long to be your mouthpiece and know you so well that I can be a truth bringer in a world so lost and hopeless and hurting. I want to spur my children on to deeper knowledge of you. I want them to crave Your Word! I want my husband to be blessed by the wife I am. I want to honor him as I honor you. I want my friends to see the Light in my life and know it comes from YOU! I want to walk like Jesus did, not sacrificing truth for grace or grace for truth either but living in the uncomfortable place of walking in both equally--fully surrendered and humbly serving YOU alone God! In Jesus Mighty Name, amen!

John 1:14
The Word became flesh and made his dwelling among us. We have seen his glory, the glory of the one and only Son, who came from the Father, full of grace and truth.